I’m Stuck

I’m stuck and I don’t know where to go,

There’s a conflict inside I can’t solve and so,

I’ll do what any rational person would,

I guess I’ll pretend that if I could,

Just change it all, and move away,

This feeling would go, it couldn’t stay,

It’s not just me, not who I am,

Neophyte or not, I’ve got a plan.

But I seem to be stuck and I don’t know where to go,

There’s a conflict inside I can’t solve and so,

I’ll keep everyone thinking it’s under control,

Whilst I flit around in search of my soul.

I wish I could tell you where I want to be,

In the next few years, I guess we’ll just see.

Because I’m stuck and I don’t know where to go,

There’s a conflict inside I can’t solve and so,

Before I decide, what to do with my life,

I’d like to know more about what life is like.

I want to see the world and have a few shitty jobs,

Before it’s all over and I’ve got a house and a dog.

Not that I ever want to live like that,

I’d rather live on a boat than live in a flat.

I might settle down at some point in my life,

Even do something crazy like have a husband or wife,

But right now I am stuck and I don’t know where to go,

There’s a conflict inside I can’t solve and so,

I’ll push all of those thoughts to the back of my head,

Try to focus on now, the present instead.

I need to figure out which way I will go,

And why I want to go in the first place, I’d quite like to know.

It’s hard to separate yourself from the cog in the machine,

Although I’m much better than I was when I was eighteen,

I’m much more myself, which is pretty good,

I still try a bit harder than I think I should,

To be something different, stand out from the crowd,

I am quite eccentric, and I talk pretty loud.

I think that’s what’s driving me to do something new,

I’m no longer satisfied and it’s making me blue.

But still I’m stuck and I don’t know where to go,

There’s a conflict inside I can’t solve and so,

I should just jump, stop looking over the side,

Get myself out there, forget about pride,

Find something I love, not just something I like,

I need to find purpose and get on with my life.

So here goes to nothing, I’m starting anew.

Time to move forward and find something to do.

So I guess I’m not stuck, I know where to go,

I’ve made up my mind now, I’ll move on and so,

I’ll make my own life, just as I should,

I cant wait to start, this is gonna be good.

I’m Stuck

Choices

I feel as if I am walking down a road with a slightly injured leg,

The surface of the road is bumpy which is making it very painful to walk.

I know that several miles down this road there is a hospital,

If I can make it there then they will fix my leg,

However, I might irreparably damage it on the way there.

But I have a choice.

There is another road forking off from this one,

It is a bright road with a smooth surface,

And it doesn’t stretch too far.

At the end of this road I can see a person,

They are smiling and beckoning me to come over.

I could definitely make it to the end of that road,

But I don’t know if the stranger can help me.

Now I must make a choice.

If I carry on down the same road I will eventually get healed,

But I will surely damage myself further in the process.

If I take the other road I do not know what will happen,

But I might get healed of at least be helped.

This choice will define the rest of my life.

Choices

Goodbye

I know leaving you,

Was the right thing for me,

But then why does it hurt even more?

There’s a lump in my throat,

That as I remember,

Swells with each love and each loss.

But thinking of you,

Still brings me joy,

And I know that these things take time.

So lets sit dow,

And works this all out,

And then get on with out lives.

Goodbye